Loneliness
Time stretching before you
Endlessly
Almost dooming
Almost more time to kill than to live
So much time
And no one to talk to, no company to spend time with
Dooming over you
Asking, making you question
And it’s the easy way
To keep busy, to keep stressing and doing things
It is the easier way
The harder leads into questions, into feelings
Loneliness, being alone when you don’t want to
Waiting, waiting for someone to reach out, to reply to you
Waiting, alone, in silence
Maybe in silence and suffering
Wondering what to do
It’s not easy to go within
To ask that question
What do I want to do with this time
Maybe I didn’t choose, didn’t choose the space here and now
But here it is
What do you want to
…
Can you go back to yourself
To this self, flawed and chaotic
Confused and struggling
Unclear and sad
Go back to yourself
In a society where
People go outward
People go to others, to distractions
Only to forget they’re there, too
They are there too
You can’t run from yourself
You can’t
I have tried, countless times
The connection can be denied but not broken
It can’t be broken
And maybe that’s a relief too
It can’t be broken
Loneliness is hard
No one said it was easy
It ties you to being with you
However hard or easy that might be
You’re bound, you’re bound to this
So again, what do you want to do
Numb, run, hide
Hide from the pain of being lonely
From all the other stuff you might carry
Deny the existence of it all
Or, turn inward if you can
Listen, accept
Make peace with the situation
You are alone for now
What do you want to do with it
Can you accept it even if it wasn’t your choice
Can you
Can you open yourself and find the beauty in it
Dance with it
Turn to who you are and be with that
Let it empower you to choose
To choose how you want to spend this time
This time you got all for yourself
What has been on your heart all along
Maybe loneliness asks for that too
Asks for what you always wanted but never did
Until now